Friday, December 9, 2011

Trying to get happy...

I'm drinking a cup of coffee and trying to get happy because I'm not right now. I just woke up from a nap and I'm really down in the dumps. I hope the caffeine will get me out of them soon. I really see the glass very empty and thoughts of doom are haunting me. I so dislike feeling this way, but I don't know how to feel differently. I don't know how to get there. 

I know what the cause of my bad feelings is. I can't do much about changing it. It lies outside myself and all I can do is change the way I react to it. Change the way I deal with it. I haven't found a method yet and I do worry.

When confronted so directly with other people's problems, I don't always know exactly what to do. My instincts tell me to run away as fast as possible, but I don't and stay and try to help. I think I should listen to my instincts more. 

I could solve this problem by just talking about it here indirectly. 

Sometimes you get pulled into other people's lives more intensely than you would like. More than is comfortable for you. Before you know it, you are in over your head. That's when you need to think about yourself and your own sanity. Actually, you should have done that a couple of steps back. It's because you cared that you didn't.

Still, you need to extract yourself in the most graceful way without making it look like you don't care at all. You've got to stop playing the rescuing angel, the good Samaritan, and start taking on a more normal role. Or at least one that fits you more comfortably. Forget about normal because who's to say what normal is? 

Right, I've made up my mind then and I know what to do now. That's a load off my mind. I will make a phone call shortly and make myself clear. Tactfully. 

Have a good evening. 



Bernie said...

Hope you are feeling better, thinking of you and wishing you a good weekend....:-)Hugs

Maggie May said...

Writing is therapeutic.
Hope that you are feeling better now.
Some times its best to write down your grievances and then burn the paper and offer it up to whatever higher being you believe in.
Maggie X

Nuts in May

Gail said...

You could have been speaking of me. I, too, seem to wind myself around other people's troubles like the string on a yo-yo.

It's because you care. We can offer an ear but I can no longer offer a hand when people are in need...I just wish them well and sometimes, that is gift enough.

laurie said...

sounds like you found clarity through writing this post. and you're right about being pulled into people's lives....sometimes unavoidable, sometimes we need to pull back. good luck with your phone call.