Wednesday, May 18, 2011


I suppose that's best to describe the benign feelings I have right now about the world  in general, though not about all things in specific, but I'll not let myself be bothered about them right now. I want to have nothing but benign feelings, pushing away the effects of the less happy news items I watched on television last night. If they are all true, they make me feel very jaded indeed and I want none of that right now. 

I do want to enjoy my few hours of peace and quiet in the darkness and silence of the night and believe in the general goodness of mankind, though it is hard to pull the wool over my own eyes. It requires a state of oblivion that even I don't know I'm capable of. I'm going to give it my best try, though. 

The face of one man is etched in my mind right now and that is the face of Dominic Strauss-Kahn and I wonder how he is doing in his single prison cell on Wicker Island. I want the allegations to not be true, but I'm afraid they are and I'm ever so sorry about that. It bothers me to no end that a man in his position would steep so low.  I suppose I feel an enormous amount of disappointment. This isn't about having extra-marital affairs anymore. This is about rape and it's very serious. 

Enough said about that. I have to find something equally true and honest in its place. Something to offset it. Something of beauty and elegance. That's hard to come by in this world. I suppose I'm looking for a hero and I can't find one at this moment. I need a Nelson Mandela.

I suppose that I don't feel as benign as I thought I did, though I wish to. I worry about men in power abusing their privilege. It's been shown that the brain activity of people in power changes and that they take bigger chances and do things ordinary people would not. They are risk takers. This goes for women in power as well as men. Women are more subtle, though. They don't have a penis in their pants with which they have to assert themselves. 

I'll gently return to the night and it's peacefulness. If I sit here so silently, it's hard to imagine that there's a big complicated world out there. I can make my own world as small as I like. I can make it as small as the light of my desk lamp reaches. I can forget about yesterday and the day that is to come. All I have to do in a while is go back to bed and sleep. I don't even have to dream about unpleasant things, at least, I hope not. 

On another subject, the book I'm reading, 'Loot and other stories,' is not fascinating me at all, but then again, not many books are lately and I never seem to be able to finish one. I will have to go in search of another book that will hopefully grab my attention well enough. I do still have enough to choose from on the bookcase. It's a shame to leave all these books unread, but maybe some day in the future I will go back and finish them.

Today actually brings nothing complicated with it. It is a day of no consequence at all. I can make it as simple as I want and I am grateful for that. I will do some simple chores and generally take care of my mental health, which has for the most part been good. I'm not going from one extreme mood to the other, but am mostly positioned somewhere in the middle range. You have no idea what a relief that is. I'm not in the bouncy castle.

I hope you're all having a good night and that you'll have a good morning when you get up. We're actually going to have good weather. 



Maggie May said...

The news can really be upsetting at times. Although we need to know what is going on...... we must try not to take on board people and situations that we can do nothing about.
Sometimes we can help with things such as contributing to aid victims of natural disasters...... otherwise we can only get on with our own lives & face up to our own problems and trial of daily living......

Hoping you have a good day today.
Maggie X

Nuts in May

Twain12 said...

"Power corrupts; absolute power corrupts absolutely"
plus i think there is a big dose of arrogance in Men or Women like this that they are above the law.
I do believe in innocent till found guilty , but he seems to have a track record and i feel for the poor woman who had to go into hiding.
On the good news front, we are suppose to see the sun sometimes this week, we'll see i guess :)
Have a good day♥

Wisewebwoman said...

My sorrow is with the abused woman and the many other women (and you know there are) who were abused by this man.
I hate the joking about he should have hired a top class hooker when that is about rape too. Albeit so-called consensual, ha!
I believe the man was addicted to violence in sex and used women as things and not human, merely the focus of his blood lust.
Sorry for ranting Nora, but I am up to the teeth with the victimization of women lately.
It is getting worse and not better.

Maureen said...

I totally agree with Maggie May. In this day and age of instant world-wide news, it's hard to focus on just our own little "world" and what affects us directly.

Also, the media seem to thrive on "bad news". How often do you hear of good things happening? Not as much as the bad, but they are out there alright. For example, this morning on our local radio a lady came on asking people to keep an eye out for an adult tricycle that was stolen from her yard (locked to their metal fence even!) that was the property of her disabled (Down's Syndrome) daughter. Yes, this was the "bad" part of the story; but the good part? Immediately after, a total stranger called to say he was BUYING her daughter a replacement because he had two healthy daughters and wanted to help. And if her original bike was found (it is pretty unique, so the odds are good it will be found) they will donate it to another disabled youngster. She was in tears and didn't want to accept his generosity at first; she only called to ask listeners to keep an eye out for the stolen bike; she never asked for anything more.

But it brought a tear to my eye that there ARE people out there with a good heart and generous soul.

Too bad there aren't more stories like this that are broadcast.