Friday, December 10, 2010

Forgetful time...

It's early in the morning and I'm brewing a cup of coffee. I just had a glass of cold milk, but now I need some caffeine. The milk has made me feel cold and I have to turn up the thermostat to get warm again. I had it turned down low for the night. 

It is raining outside and it looks like it has been all night because almost all of the snow and the ice are gone. The streets and the sidewalks are just about clear again, which is great. There will be no slipping and sliding when I go outside today. I will be able to walk Tyke again in the usual manner and that will be a great relief to both of us. We've been cooped up inside enough and are getting cabin fever. 

I'm sure I've never appreciated rain as much as I do now. I'll be able to ride my bike to the tobacco shop and that is a lot easier than having to walk there on the slippery sidewalks in this neighborhood. Riding my bike had been an impossibility and I don't know how the Exfactor managed it when he went to get my groceries. I suppose he is more fearless than I am and not afraid to fall and break something. Maybe his male hormones make him more brave or foolhardy. Either way, he got them done. 

Today he is coming over for a cup of coffee and the domestic help will be here as well, which means I have to clean up the apartment a bit. I always have to clean up the apartment before she comes. I have to put some order into it anyway, so it will be easy for her to clean it. 

And much to my surprise it is Friday again, which seems impossible. It means I have to prepare myself for the weekend and not have it be another unstructured waste of time. I can pretend I'm sick again and spend it in my bathrobe. It did have its appeal. It made me feel safe and cloistered, as if I was hibernating in a sheltered place.. 

I can also be more engaged and get dressed and take Tyke for regular walks and fill my days with more interesting activities, but then I do have to pull the wool over my own eyes and pretend I have those. I'll just watch a lot of television and act like that matters. There will be cultural programs on and lots of sports. I'll pretend to be engaged by them. I must care about something, recluse that I am. 

I'll find some comfortable clothes to wear that are also warm and I don't have to wear my hiking boots anymore. That's a relief anyway. I can wear another pair of boots. It will be a sport to stand in front of the closet and pick out the right outfit for the weekend. I'll opt for comfort more than anything. I'm in that kind of mood. 

So okay, the weekend will be about comfort and warmth and it's starting today. A day early, I'm cheating a bit. 

Have a good day.



Bernie said...

You sound well my friend, we still have a lot of snow and our highways are treachous as we had freezing rain and then snow a bit earlier tonight. It is very cold and snowing again and the radio is asking people to stay off the roads, it is going to be a long winter.
Enjoy your walk with Tyke, and have a wonderful weekend....Hugs

Gail said...

Have a fantastic weekend, glad to hear the ice is gone.

Twain12 said...

enjoy your weekend..pretty cold here but it is suppose to go up to +11C :O next week. The weather can't make up it's mind LOL

Wisewebwoman said...

The rhythm of our days, there's a comfort in that.
i can't seem to get motivated at all. Inertia.
You are doing a lot better than me, energy wise...

Jenny Schouten Short said...

Nora, I just found your blogs. How interesting they are and a different perspective on life. I like your honesty. I, too, live in The Netherlands. Have for five years. It is a different way of life here and I'm glad to be going home to Texas for a while. My Dutch husband loves the cold winters here. I get depression on top of the depression I already have. You seem to cope with it well. Good for you! Jenny from Oostkapelle