Saturday, October 23, 2010

Go lightlly...

 The package that was supposed to get here between 9 and 12 o' clock, got here at 5 minutes before 12. Well, I suppose somebody has to get squeezed in last. I would have been ready to make a phone call at noon if it had not been here, I am that much of a stickler. The poor man did look harried and I forgave him on the spot. I'm sure he does not have an easy job delivering all those packages to uptight people who are waiting impatiently like I was. All those harassed housewives who want to try on their new clothes and other assorted customers whose addresses he has to find.

I took my package into the bedroom immediately before Tyke could rip it out of my hands, because he thinks everything is for him that gets delivered, and got out the black mini skirt and the leggings that I wanted to wear with my new purchases. They are a black T-shirt with a draped neckline and it is draped going down too, so you mustn't pull it down too tightly otherwise you lose the effect, and a very modern looking cardigan that reaches down in long points down the front, which are edged in a braid in the same material and which look very neat. 

So I put that all on right away and my earrings too and felt smashing. It was even better than I had hoped for. I do know which clothes I like and what looks good on me. I zero in on those things right away and instinctively know that I should get them. No, I don't have a big head at all, just a super inflated ego. Ha! You see how incredibly vain I am, don't you? 

I was just outside with Tyke for the second time and it was pretty cold. There was quite a bit of wind and now it has started to rain, so there go my plans to hang up the sheets and pillow cases on the clothing line.

My sister just called me to tell me that she and her boyfriend were going to the thermal baths at the spa and to tell me how cozy they had it last night together with her daughter, while I thought she was calling me to invite me over, because when I answered the phone, I said, "Yes, that will be fine."  She didn't ask me what I meant by that and I felt like a fool. 

I'm afraid I'm feeling awfully sorry for myself right now, because I'm never invited for anything. I'm not included in my sister's very busy social life at any point, while she has so much to go around. The Exfactor also does not include me in his, even though we shared the same people. I think people aren't very generous and are mostly concerned with themselves and don't think what it's like for me to always be alone. Nobody ever thinks, let's ask Irene over, she could use some diversion. 

I'm rapidly cycling downwards now and I'm sitting here crying, but it has a cause. The cause is my pity party. I'm sitting here all dressed up with no place to go and that is what it finally comes down to. It doesn't matter what I look like, there's no one to look at me and tell me I look pretty. 



Twain12 said...

i'm sure you look very pretty !! Maybe the people in your life don't think you would enjoy the outings. I know in my case people stopped asking because i mostly declined invitations after i slowly but surly withdrew from everything and everybody. I try to make the effort sometimes to initiate some get togethers now. I'm not sure if that is the case in your life. I hope i don't get you down more though with my post . Sending you my love and i hope the day gets better.

Bernie said...

I think that Twain12 is right Nora, people probably feel you don't want to socialize with them. Have you told them you would like to be included once in a while (I know you shouldn't have too but only you know if you have turned them away)
I hope you don't get too depressed, can you go someone on your own when these things happen. If I want to go out and haven't made plans with anyone I still go anyway.
Keeping you in my prayers....:-) Hugs

Wisewebwoman said...

I can get very reclusive too but I find if I really force myself, I invite some people in to get the ball rolling again, just for coffee and a few homemade goodies, no cost at all. Would you feel up to trying that?
Sending you special hugs today.

Wisewebwoman said...

Sorry I meant to add - what we are missing intensely in our lives we have to offer to others.
A wise old shaman said that to me once and I've put it into practice more times than I can remember.

Maggie May said...

Twain answered what I was going to write..... that if you decline going out at night a lot (like I do) then people stop asking me to go.
I expect that might be the reason you find yourself alone a lot.
I don't dress up very often as I don't go anywhere where I need to be dressed up.

I often go out in the day by myself and have a good time.
Hope you cheer up soon.
Maggie X

Nuts in May


I am the same here. To be honest I cant stand dressing up, jeans a nice top and western boots thats my dressing up! I dont really have the need to go out like to a resturant and so forth our community does alot of pot luck and community get togethers and its fun and comfortable . love your new blog set up ! Have a great day !

Babaloo said...

I hope you're feeling better by now...
Can I make a very careful suggestion? It's a question really: Why are you waiting for people to ask you out or invite you? Do the asking yourself! People may not want to impose or have other reasons for not asking. Ring a friend and make a 'date' with them. Don't wait for others to approach you, that way we can all sit around forever and ever if we're not careful.

Gail said...

I, on the other hand, never want to go...