Much to my own surprise, I turned the computer off last night and watched an entire episode of 'Silent Witness' on TV and went straight to bed after that. Oh, and before I did that, I walked the dog like a good owner, so he didn't have to piddle out back. I was mighty proud of myself. So, I didn't sleep on the sofa with the computer on so that I could get behind it the minute I woke up. When I got up, I made a pot of coffee first and then turned on the computer. It's the little nuances that count. The fact is that I slept and that I was ready to go to bed and fell asleep almost instantly. My stomach wasn't tied in knots and I wasn't obsessed about the computer.Of course, now I'm sitting behind it, but I always do that in the early morning, so that is part of my regular ritual. There's nothing abnormal about that.
I'm trying to get my life back to normal now that I'm starting to see the forest for the trees again. I can't wait to have everything back in place the way it used to be. If there's anything I abhor it is change. I am going to ask for an extra two hours of input from my personal helper sometime earlier in the week on a Monday or Tuesday. I think I can use that and it's been offered to me. I will arrange that tomorrow. I'm going to quit the creative classes because I think they have caused the necessary upheaval for me and I don't want any more of it. I've come to be disgusted with them and anything associated with them and I'm sorry that I ever tried to fit them into my schedule. It's been a bad experience. I'm happy that I'm getting Monday's domestic help back. That's a very good thing. You really should appreciate what you have.
I'm going back to bed and finish sleeping. I won't have to worry about the day getting started yet. I think I will read a book.